Somehow I've always felt as if this time would never come. The time when I would actually have to choose a path for my future. When college has finally hit and you realize that reality is all too real, then you just can't run anymore. It feels as if I haven't had enough time to develop who I really am and who I want to be. At 18 years, most of us feel like we know what we're doing yet we don't.
We're no longer at the age where we're arrogant and blame the world for our mistakes because we know better. We are past the age of depending on others and it's time for us to take our future back into our own hands. As much as we feel as if a protective shield will always protect us; it won't.
In psychology we learn that we are at an egocentric stage, where we feel like nothing bad can happen to us. Nothing can go wrong in our world. Can't I stay in this world forever? Where I would never worry about these things?
But I already know what I can't avoid. Know for a fact that I have to finally choose my path.
Maybe my issue lies in the fact that I will suffer all the consequences of making the wrong choice. I know for a fact that I am not the only one suffering.
For now, I've decided to finally follow my dream, the fear will just have to wait.
After two years I've decided to come back to this blog, I guess writing about my feelings have always relieved me, but somewhere along the way, I've lost the time to. I wonder what ever happen to the girl who used to read 40 books over one summer and write poems in her free time?
Majoring in music, where will it take me?
